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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Amy Country: United States State: New Jersey Birthday: 10/4/1988 Gender: Female Interests: ice hockey...umm...ice hockey..and more ice hockey?? Message: message me AIM: a r k 1 00 4 88 Member Since: 3/10/2004

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

i don't like opening myself up to people..i feel like i have noone to turn to...i just cant stand this anymore...i chose to not go out tonight and instead sat in my room and cried? what is wrong with me...why have i been like this for weeks now...why am i never truly happy..why do i put on that fucking happy face and make everyone think im so happy and stuff...well im not...i just want someone eto hold on to and believe me when i thinkg somethings wrong ...could i really be depressed...i have no fucking clue buti just want this phase of my life to go away....my god is this a way to spend a weekend?

ugh

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Saturday, March 17, 2007

okay yeah i haven't written in a long time again but once again i need somewhere to vent. So, now for the second night in a row i am sitting here crying....the realization that my dog really doesnt have too much longer left in him is really affecting me. I don't want to go back to school because I don't want to be away when he goes and not be able to say goodbye. I wish I could see him everyday, but with school and all I cant. and it just sucks that my first year away is when he just has really begun to deteriorate. There is nothing worse in the world than watching someone or something you love fall apart in front of your eyes. he cant really hear or see and he limps and his legs sometimes give out on him and he drinks an overwhelming amount of water and pees like a fene. i feel like i think about this too much but i cant help it..my dog is my life and ive been with him since i was one so its really hard to go through this.

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

okay so i havent written in over a year...but theres just some stuff i need to get out and i guess this is the only place to do it...i have a feeling in my stomach right now...the funky kind that makes you kind of sick..like you have something trapped inside of you and you just wanna vent to someone and no matter how much you vent or talk about it it just lingers there and makes you just feel really down...that kind of feeling...and like i just have alot of regrets this past year....so lauren and i were best friends throughout high school and i thought we would never fight never have any problems everything was great...all of a sudden senior year things changed and i kind of shyed away from her because she had alot going on in her life, i had alot going on in my life..and kaitlin would always get a bit jealous or spiteful if i would hang out with her more than her or whatever...so as usual i was always stuck in the middle with nowhere to go..so we graduate things are good and i get into a fight with both of them over the summer...especially lauren and i can see where she was coming from but then again i had valid points too...but anyways we really didnt talk or anything and i didnt see her until right before winter break...she went to college shes changed back to her old self and shes grown up alot...and shes the lauren i remember and the one i always had a good time with...so i hung out with her more than anyone else this break and it was just like old times...and now i am realizing im going to colorado in a day and then i wont see her until march if that? and it just pains me that i am going to miss her so much..and i have noone at school to really connect with on the same level as my girls at home...in fact i have no girls at school that are the same as them which really just leaves me in the middle again between solely hanging out with boys and like sitting by myself just depressing myself even more..i always put on a happy face and appear happy and im just tired of it like deep down inside im just one stressball ready to explode at anytime...i know i definitely have anxiety problems and i hate change and now is just one of those times i wish i could go back to high school and start all over again....and i used to relieve my stress playing hockey..and this hockey situation is a whole different story...i just want to play again like it used to be..at the same intensity and level and people...i love my girls team at school but seriously i just want my old hockey back and i want to play more during the week...like once isnt enough...i just dont know how to handle things and right now quite honestly im almost at a breaking point....i thought break wasnt supposed to be stressful but i guess im wrong...

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

in honor of my birthday i write a new entry....

x LiL sHoRtY 688 (11:59:59 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

KremeFiLLin28 (12:00:16 AM): HAPPY BIRTHdaY AMY KRAUSE!!!

KremeFiLLin28 (12:02:30 AM): little amy krause is now 17

ICEDAWG300 (12:00:08 AM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ICEDAWG300 (12:01:51 AM): just rember
ICEDAWG300 (12:01:58 AM): get in the car
ICEDAWG300 (12:02:00 AM): start the car
ICEDAWG300 (12:02:03 AM): ..floor it

xTiggsx13 (12:02:35 AM): AMY!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MONKEY4533 (12:03:04 AM): happy birthday

Fink08 (12:09:01 AM): whose my big girl

DMEAD28 (12:11:06 AM): HAPPY BDAY!

REN 233 (4:34:18 AM): HAPPY birthday to u.. happy birthday to you... happy birtday to amy ... happy birthday to you

brookescrazed91 (2:40:28 AM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU (us)

queenmaddy225 (1:08:33 AM): happy birthday amy !!!!!!

CamperQt326 (8:04:15 AM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE<33

CamperQt326 (8:05:04 AM): u sexy thing u!

jaygurl1212 (10:55:26 AM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!

runt3000 (10:34:00 AM): HAAAAAAPPPY BIRFDAY AMY!!!!

X a t i eh 928X (10:33:01 AM): OMFG AMY HAPPY FUCKING 17TH BDAY, U HOT SWEATY WHOREEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stnD pmpN cwbY (11:32:50 AM): happy birthday

FMistic (2:00:24 PM): happy brithday kiddo and congrats

kila43 (1:41:36 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!

laur8021 (1:08:54 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!woo hoo 17!!!

fungenspricht (12:32:57 PM): yep, happy birthday!

hcKYpLyr mr 762 (2:38:33 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

MarLeeK (12:29:12 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!!!!!!

Riceman788888 (12:20:23 PM): congrats

samschac (3:31:28 PM): happy bday!

LiLcAmPeRcUtIe (4:17:36 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

x littlestahly x (4:01:09 PM): happy birthday amy! miss you & love you!

Funsk8er21 (4:32:19 PM): happy bday

PitChinPriNceSsS (7:34:52 PM): congrats on the license and turning 17 hun!

as sweet az suga (6:55:10 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Little QT 688 (10:17:11 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!! AND CONGRATS ON GETTING YOUR LICENCE!!!! XOXO MWAH LUV U!!!!

Aokerazyman 89 (11:37:24 PM): HAPPY B DAY

SuperDeZuper8 (5:53:33 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMMYYY!

Whitey says:

hey happy birthday amy!

House says:

happy b-day, good luck drivin!

mike says:

happy birthday to you too

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Sunday, May 01, 2005

i havent written in a longggg time...anyways..njc split up..its now 11 with the nj selects..three with princeton tiger lilies, and me the only one stayin with the colonials...i was so upset and everything but now im just kinda makin the best of a situation...yeah umm..me and kait got into a fight like last week? idk over stupid crap..last night i went to a bonfire with kait and omg i had so much fun..and today i hung with lauren rickey and petar most of the day and then had hockey game..oh yeah ive been hanging out with nick for a little bit but yeah umm idk where thats goin because it seems like hes totally lost interest in me right now..whatever...i shouldnt care so much..

i'm goin to evan's parents day thing tomrrow and gunna meet his frat brothers and such but my aunt and uncle are gunna be there and tehres this stupid fight between my family and their family right now over the stupidest crap ever...and oh yeah i had my first chamatez today since passover started...ohhhhh so good

anyways im out

"and as you sleep and no one is listening i will lift you off your feet.."

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